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LETTER TO GOD

This is my entry to Ms. Joy's "Letter To God" contest. I didn't win but it was a very good experience.
I would like to thank her for giving me an opportunity.


LETTER TO GOD


MY NOTE TO GOD

Father it's been a while since we last talked.
I always sing songs and talk to people about you.
But then I can't truly recall the last time we sat together
and had a heart to heart talk.

Father forgive my inadequacy
For words wouldn't be enough to express my gratitude and
reverential respect towards you.
I know I am not the best, but Father I plea!
Hear me out! Extend your love and compassion upon me!

You see Lord, my childhood was not the best.
I lacked fatherly love-- I must confess.
My lonely heart has had no rest.
But, because of your love I have been blessed.

This letter is not solely for me.
But for the little angels, yes! that's who they're gonna be.
Children that I haven't met yet,
blessings that I will love till my last breath.

Father I pray that you guide me.
To be the best mom I can be.
Don't let the hatred for my biological father be seen.
But, let the wonderful love of my mom intervene.

Let the things I've learned from every suffering,
Teach them that in every failure there comes winning.
Let my hands and feet be the extension of yours,
That you may perfectly guide them through life's different doors.

Let them grow strong to defeat and stand against every adversity
but be kind and gentle to those who need it.
May your wisdom help them in their every decision.
Enough to judge between right and wrong.

Help me Father, to raise them in modesty.
Where you are the center of the family.
Keep them safe from this harsh and promiscuous world
And let them look forward to heaven's gold.

This note comes from the heart.
Of your child. Of your servant.
And a future mom.

_genskie_

Girl With A Pink Lipstick 9

"This place doesn't really look bad at all. Though I must admit it does look crazy at night."I was mumbling while walking down the once dingy path I walked in last night.
I didn't even notice the mini basketball court right next to the lounge.

"Hello there!" I almost jumped when I felt a light pat on my shoulder.
"Oh diz wat Starbucks brought to you. Patronizin' der dang coffee makin' yáll jiggidy and shocked 'ol dang time." A big middle aged woman. She has dark complexion, shoulder length kinky hair and her big loop earrings were noticeable. They were big as my mum's bracelet.
"Wut? Son you don't stand there in front of my lounge, lookin' at me like yo so high. I know I'm hawt but don't go crazy like that. I don't dig no youngin' so wazzit yo' need?" She asked.
"Oh I'm sorry ma'am I was waiting for someone. She told me to see her here at ten. It's already half past ten so I was wondering if she was already inside." I explained.
"You muz' be lil pinky been tellin me on the phone."
"Lil pinky?" She made me confused.
She laughed sop hard like I've given her the best joke ever.
"Heck no dat aint 'er name. I juz call 'er like dat coz she's my lil pink gypsy."
"Oh yes ma'am that's her. The pink gypsy."
She laughed again. This time she laughed so hard that she ended up choking.
"Are you alright? " I patted her back to ease her.
"Nah I a okay...ehem...ehem." She was trying to relax. "You still dunno 'er name?" She was shocked.
"Oh boy! You both are crazy. She told me she aint know your name too. She just sent me a messaged sayin'dat a goofy lookin' guy needin' a job and gonna see me. You aint goofy. You lookin so fine. Iz goofy da' new term fo' fine now?" She asked again and I shrugged. "You kidz are killin me. Keep evolvin language and tis' hard to keep y on you n' mo." She exclaimed and signaled me to get inside.

The lounge looks different when it is empty. It looks like an art gallery  with tabled and chairs in the middle and sofas for VIPs on the balcony. It is very cozy and sophisticated. It doesn't look like it outside though.

"We open in the mornin, 'cept we aint servin alcohols. We make coffee, tea, smoothies  and wut ever the customer like."
"We badly need a helper in the mornin' to check deliveries and handle the cash register. Do you by any chance have any thieves or murderer in yo fam?" She asked, her face looked so serious.
"None ma'am."
"Are you usin' drugs or any substance yah know?" She was lookin' at me closely now.
"No ma'am, I don't even smoke nor drink." I responded.
"Okay you are hired! You are goin' to handle the cash register. You check the deliveries every Friday and Adora and Ramona willl be the one helping you running the store. They two make the most delicious coffee in Carlstone."

Things were happening so fast. A minute ago I was lurking at the door and here I am being brief with my duties and responsibilities.

"Am I really hired? " I was just trying to make sure that I heard it right.  I am telling you this woman talked so fast as in non stop.
"Why is there a problem? You aint want to?" She sarcastically asked.
"Oh no ma'am  I want it. I just can't ...." She didn't let me finish what ever I want to say.
"No more talkin', You go ask Adora the shop uniform and fo' your other stuff. By the way call me Zula. Don't dare askin where mah name came from coz I don't freakin no too.
Too much thinkin iz bad fo' my health so I didn't bother askin' mah parents before they leave the good earth. Oh my good parents...." She said while dabbing the hankie at the corner of her eyes. Talking to her is like watching a sitcom, funny, hilarious.
"Is she coming?" I asked Zula after she's done reminiscing the good moments with her parents.
"She aint! He grand daddy is in the hospital. The man prolly had his asthma attack again."

I was a bit disappointed for not seeing her that day. But I prayed for her grandpa's fast recovery, and also for her. I hope she's fine. I have all the time to see her here next time. Maybe tomorrow.

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Sorry mahaba hahaha...  okay lang kahit skip reading but It would be better if you read everything pati yung part 1- 8 hehehe. :P

_genskie_

IKAW AT AKO ( tatlong mukha)

Ikaw at Ako

Ano  nga ba tayo?

Isang palaisipan na pilit nilang hinuhulaan

Kahit ako maý nais kung matuklasan

Kung ikaw at ako nga baý kahulugan din ng tayo

Pwede ko na nga bang ariin ang puso mo

Sige nanaman at sabihin na 

Ang tulad koý wag ng pahirapan pa

Ikaw at Ako

Asan na nga ba tayo?

Gayong ang landas natin pilit di nagtatagpo

Wari bagang ikaw'y sumasagwan ng paliko

Minsan tayo'y iisa lamang ang hangarin

Ngayon sa tahaki'y ramdam kung nag iisa na din

Asan na nga ba tayo?

Nilalakaran mo pa din ba ang nilalakaran ko?

Ikaw at Ako

Tila ba gang tinutukso

Puso ko'y iba ang may ari 

bat gayong ikaw ang nag hahari

Hindi pwedeng maging tayo iyan ang wika ng isip ko

Ngunit ang damdamiý di kayang tiyakin ito

Ayaw kong padarang sa kapusukan

Ayokong maiwan sa kawalan

Layuan mo ako, tanging hiling ko

Kalayaan kanino yan ang tanong ko?

Ikaw at ako

At iba't ibang mukha nito

Ikaw na lamang ang magturo

Kung alin ka dito

_genskie_

PURELY RANTING!!!

Okay I posted just couple of minutes ago. And I know that was just a re-post. Nothing's new. I was just sharing an old pathetic junk from my previous Emo-days.
Then suddenly I felt guilty. I felt so unproductive. I was like "You are posting something you have posted before, people have read it so what's the point?"
As much as I want to write my mind is pretty tired.
Not that I am so busy, It's just I can't get my mind working.
The word "TIRED" literally keep flashing at the back of mind and it's hindering me to write anything sensible.
This post is not sensible this is just pure ranting about how lazy unproductive I am.

This freaking back/hip pain been up for weeks.  I don't even want to count the days I have had it, but it's frustrating. I can't do my usual stuff/activities any more. I can't stand longer than 20 mins. It's either I walk it out which make the muscle contraction a bit stronger or lay it down which I can't do while at work.
Ahhhhhhhh! A lot of BS been happening to me this month. I want this month to be over together with this freaking pain.

_____
I am abusing the word "OKAY"
because that's all I can say.
I am not fine...not near it... and I am about to blow and scare the hell outta people going my way!!!
I AM FRUSTRATED!


P.S.
I am a bit emotional lately. If you can't say anything good on the comment section, just keep it.
I am not welcoming any negativity. Say what ever you want, call me names or what ever just don't let me know. Be kind to me.... just for today!

-genskie-

THIS IS ME

I am me
I rely on my own capability
my strength may sometimes fail me
but my mind still works for me
my heart can be deceiving
but my mind is still thinking
I may not be perfect
but i can be right
don't treat me like dumb or ill tell you where u should stand
Don't intimidate me with your words
Don't threat me with your strength
For inside this good heart is a fighter
Who will never ever let you go farther

I am a friend

You can call me in your weary times

and i can laugh with you and bring u smile

I can be there and not be judgemental

but be true to me as i am to you

for i won't go for your self centered ambition

i wont walk with your greedy thoughts

for friends never let another friends fall

I am a lover

I love with all my heart

I can forget self interest if that thing can build man's trust

but don't use my love against me

you might own my heart but not my mind

never ever bring to me your shitty kind.

Please know that i am not perfect

don't turn me into something u know i wont be

all i want is you to accept me as being me

all i can say if you cant stand me in my worst

then u don't deserve me in my best

I am a woman

I am fragile, i am weak

I often listen to what my heart is saying

than what my mind is thinking

I might change decisions easily

It is because you all always needing me

don't put me as your option

but set me as your priority

for every man's success is a woman behind it

I am me...

a friend.....

a lover....

a woman.....

i am me......

-genskie-

PAGLALAKBAY

ang aking isipan ay nag lalakbay
sa dakong paroon ang lugar ay di alam
palayo sa gulo at hirap ng buhay
lugar kung saan di batid ang agam-agam

gusto kung lumipad na parang agila
ariin ang lawak ng himpapawid
ikumpas ang pakpak ng kalayaan
walang iniisip kundi kasiyahan

gusto kung akyatin ang  pinaka mataas na bundok
at masdan ang lahat ng aking paningi'y kayang masakop
damhin ang simoy ng hanging habagat
abutin ang mataas na mga ulap

nais kung tikman ang lahat ng pagkain
maanghang, matamis, maalat maasim
ayoko ng pait sa dila ko'y dumampi
kasarapan lamang ang syang saki'y lalagi

ayokong lakbayin ang dagat ng pighati
ayokong madinig ang iyak ng mga api
minsan na akong nalunod at nadayukdok
pusong inapi di na pasusubok

akin itong makakamit sa piling ni Ama
na syang lumikha ng langit at lupa
sya ang may alam kung kelan ako pupunta
doon sa lugar na kagayganda at  kahalihalina